Another tough tennis week for me in the desert. I lost 4-6 6-2 6-2 to Heather Watson in the first round--a bummer for me, particularly since I was defending a fourth round appearance from 2016. I felt that I came out to an okay start in the first set but succumbed to some external pressures in the second and third. Despite trying to maintain an "in-the-moment" attitude, I found it difficult at times to cope with the idea of losing points and dropping back in the rankings. The good news is that I have no major points coming off for a while now. The bad news is that point defenses are a necessary evil of tennis, and I will have to figure out how to handle pressure more gracefully down the road.
I genuinely feel as though my tennis has been in a good place--it's just a matter of getting my mind to catch up. So often, tennis becomes more mental than physical, and we players talk ourselves out of winning games, sets, and matches, despite our playing ability. Fortunately, I have incredible support around me and I can't imagine the lack of confidence will last for long. But that doesn't mean that the short term losses aren't painful.
Back at home, I've put my off court energy into a really exciting move. My boyfriend and I have just bought our first house together (!!!) and have moved our things and begun furnishing in the past week. We are moving from a 650 sq ft apartment into a proper home, so I have no doubt that my quality of life at home is going to improve dramatically and become far less stressful thanks to the new space. I try to take peace in the idea that everything happens for a reason, so perhaps the early loss this week was meant to allow me to enjoy the transition back home more thoroughly.
As always with tennis, another opportunity lies ahead in Miami, so I'll be doing everything I can to be ready to take advantage. But in the meantime, I'm trying to remember that life extends far beyond tennis, and that win or lose things have a way of working themselves out. Especially with hard work. :)
See ya next week,
About My Tennis Life Series:
In February of 2017, Tennis Channel launched its first multi-platform content series My Tennis Life featuring two professional tennis players, Nicole Gibbs (USA) and Sam Groth (Australia), as they traverse the globe in search of valuable ATP and WTA points. The series gives you a behind-the-scenes look of the professional tour. Tennis fans across the globe will witness Sam and Nicole’s efforts to break through respectively on the ATP and WTA Tours, and the challenges they face while trying to improve their game and career earnings.